Still awake

Now its 9.15 in the morning, and I am still awake.. bukan x ngantuk, tp I rasa takut nak tido, rasa besalah pon ade sikit.. u know why? I tell u why! sbb nye summer exam is just around the corner.. lg one week and perasaan I bercampur baur.. stress, give up, malas, ngantuk, gemoks, homesick... mmg lengkap satu package..

bile dah stress level makin tinggi mula la gelabah.. satu malam dok pegang note sambil dok bt2 wild imagination, hehe xde la wild mane.. cume ape org kate tu, berangan termenung.. I ni dah jadi x keruan dah, mcm ade org nak masuk meminang tau. sambil2 dok buat wild imagination tu td, mcm2 la I fikir, nak jadi pelakon la, cikgu tadika la, nak kahwin terus la, nak bukak bisnes la.. adehhh.. penat betol dah ni jadi student..

study table ala2 student 1st class gitu, xpe yg penting gaya kne mantapp! :P

time stress jugak la idea pelik2 datang.. after solat subuh td I tetibe mabuk nak g jogging.. ajak nadia, tp die kate pagi2 sejuk, nnt tekak sakit... tp I degil, xnk dengar. dalam pukul 6 td pegi la jogging jap. hah amek kau! naek beku halkum gua! sakit gile tekak.. hahaha padan muka

take a deep rest

Its 1.05 am right now... I've done about 3 or 4 biochem essays. merupakan satu pencapaian yg agak memberansangkan.. hehehe at least I did study right? now susah la I nak focus, asyik terbabas je.. ade je kekangan and alasan.. kalo siang xle focus coz lapar la, penat la (I puasa lagi btw).. after dah breakfast, xle focus coz kenyang sangat plak.. adeh, ade je benda

So, after 4 essays, rest for a bit, then nak solat jap.. pastu hope2 bleh sambung balik.. target malam ni nk bt lagi 5-6 essays kalo mampu.. kalo lebih lagi bagos! btw, lately ni I tido ikot waktu US coz nak tunggu subuh teros.. subuh now abes awal, takot x bgn plak kan so hari2 I tido after subuh dalam kol 5-6 am then bgn la dalam pukul 12-1, hehehe bagos gak act gaya hidup mcm nih, bleh kurang makan coz bgn je dah kol 1, then mandi bla bla dalam kol 4-5 baru makan heavy meal skali ngan dinner terus.. so everyday I just have I heavy meal which mean I can at least maintain my weight walaupun x turun, better than gaining right? hehe

okeh, done with the rest! go back to work :D
kat atas tu ade my fav song sepanjang zaman, Broken Vow tajuk die. best! :D

school-sick

I am fasting today (random statement, saje je I nk mention :P)

What do u guys remember about ur pre and primary school? For me, I dont really remember about my primary school. ade la yg I igt, but not much. mayb time tu kecik lg and all the memories tu x berape nk melekat kt hati. the things that I remember almost the general thingings like I dulu headgirl, then I msk pengakap, byk pergi camping.. pastu I msk nasyid, jd bandgirl maen instrumen, tp I cant remember the name... but the most important thing that I regret bcoz I couldnt remember is my old friends. I just igt my best friends and they are not more than 10.. mayb kalo terserempak I cam muka, tp I x igt name. and the worse is, best friends yg I igt nh pon sume dh lost contact... kalo ade pon sorg je coz I know where she lives.. tp tu pon x contact.. after upsr (huh, 10 yrs ago?), teros sume hilang.. myb bcoz in the past 10 yrs (and now) I was away from my hometown. mmg la I ade blk, but I spent more of my time away. I learnt to hang out with friends when I was outside. I start blaja to find true friends pon outside... so end up, I dont have any friends at home.. most of my friends in Kl... so ble I cuti I start jd agk loser, coz xde kwn nk hang out, hahaha Luckily I have such great and wonderful siblings.. so kalo hang out pon, ngan dorg je la..

It was different in my secondary school... I remember almost everything even the simple one.. hahaha friends pon still contact bcoz now dah maju everyone got FB, email bla bla.. so its almost impossible to lose contact.. huhu smlm terjumpa FB my friends (not really friends tho, they are my seniors and juniors), ramai sgt, haha nmpk la everybody looks different now, ramai gk yg dh engaged and married.. kalo seniors, yg garang2 cam nk telan org dlu ble tgk dh ade husband, dah ade anak, haha

and today, I found (not found, ade org invite) my primary school group kt FB.. what? seriously, maju ok! haha I tgk pics dulu2, all the teachers... I tried to find my batch, tp xde pon yg I kenal.. I think yg join nh all the seniors, maybe.. but I do hope ade la my batch yg terjumpa group tu..

wierd dream of mine

Act mlm b4 I tido and dpt mimpi nh, I tgk Down With Love, so termasuk la hero drama itu ke dlm mimpi I, hehehe

Scene atas jambatan somewhere in such a beautiful village.

start2 je mimpi, I tgh jalan2 ngan hero drama neh. I was not really sure who I am to him, we seem pretty close but what I am sure we were not a couple. I said something to him to comfort him bcoz he just broke up with his gf. Tapi ape yg pelik, I spoke chinese with him! wth, I ckp cina and I faham bahasa cina. But as long as I remember, mulut I x gerak pon time I cakap.. rase mcm ckp dari hati ke hati ngan hero drama tu. so, ni sket dialog yg I igt, tp I translate la, coz I pon x reti nk tulih blk dlm bahasa cina, I tau ckp cina time mimpi je.

I: Hey, dont give up. I know she still loves u. u just need to find ways to get
back with her. Maybe she just needs some time to figure out that u both love each
other.

Hero drama: I dont know how to say this to u, but I can feel that I have no feelings
for her anymore. and now I realize that the person that I love is YOU!

I: *speechless*

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S***T! I x sempat ckp I love him too! Ble tersedar sengih sorang2 pahtu br terasa pelik yg I neh bleh faham cakap cina, hahaha

Lately neh I mmg asyik mimpi benda2 pelik but sweet yg agk2 xnk bgn tu, haha